10.18.2008

grow up pretty. get a good man.

do something about that skin
try to find a style that makes your hair grow long and pretty
don't get seconds on that, you know you need to lose weight
sit with your legs closed, especially in skirts and dresses
learn how to walk in high heels
there are nice boys at church
if you never stop sucking your thumb how are you ever gonna smile pretty?
don't be so aggressive
you talk too loud
why are you always talking?
don't correct people, it makes them feel inferior
you should wear more dresses
you need a girdle
we aren't the kind of family that advocates that; we're christians
why didn't you just finish college?
you're too smart to be anywhere except school
okay, when are you gonna have babies?
why are you living there?
what's that food you're eating?
when are you going back to school?
you don't live here, you can't do that
you can't afford that, can you?
why would you spend $12 on breakfast? you too good for the cart or mcdonald's?
i didn't know you spoke spanish, you just be spittin that shit like [unintelligible]
can you tell me where to find a poetry reading? why not?
why don't you smile more?
girls don't dance with girls around here, no matter what
no, i know what you're trying to do
my mom said you're not as cute as you think you are
do you sing? why don't you sing something?
why do you always have to be right?
why don't you fight back?
why don't you have a man?
are you gay?
_____ is weird; you probably know him/ her.
turn the music down, nobody wants to hear that foreign shit.
who ever told you that you can have whatever you want just because you want it?
do you and your sisters really all have the same father?
why are you so preachy?
you can make money being a doula/ midwife/ crafter?
you're high maintenance
you're weird
you're spoiled
you must come from money w/ an attitude like that, cuz if you don't . . .
i don't know where you get these airs from
why do you switch so hard when you walk?
you know you want this dick, girl
i'ma pray that god changes your mind about that
happy birthday (via text, when i call you all the time)
you sure you gonna wear that?
you always got some weird -- no, i'm sorry, different -- shit on
you talk in circles. all women do, actually
you use your feelings to navigate the world; that's illogical
don't do that, that's not what nice girls do
what do you mean you don't believe in jesus?
you gave up on moving to new york, didn't you?
get outta here w/ that boho shit
you don't know a good thing when you see it
what made you think you could fuck him too?
i mean, you could be my girl if you . . .
oh, no, we're not exclusive . . . where'd you get that from?
you're trippin, this could never happen
why aren't you writing?
what are you writing about?
stop writing about me
you're phony
you'll never have a man
can't you just be normal?
when can we expect payment?
you aren't any different from anyone else, get that idea out of your head right now


this post is the result of attempting to empty my head of any and everything that's ever stuck to me and made me feel like i'm not a divinely blessed being. may every last bit of it be removed from my mind and set free on the wind, never to return to me.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

when i think about this kind of negativity, i remind myself that all the things that make me who i am are the same reasons why the people in my life love me. i wouldn't be me without all those things. without this hair, this body, this mind, these actions, i'm not me. and what the hell good is that?

sparkle said...

word. i felt like listing all this crap would help me see that i've no further use for any of it. and i don't. give thanks. :)

omi said...

ase!

that's a beyond dope exercise. good for you.